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when I was younger. I always felt a strange attraction to the same sex. I never dislike girls but I did feel that they wasn’t right for me. I never acted on my feelings when I was young because you know they was just feelings and I wasn’t taught that. I was only taught what I know. As I got older it went away a little bit which lead me dating girls. I like the girls I dated and they were nice amazing people but I felt like something was missing. When I become older to understand what those feelings was I acted upon them. Which lead me having my first boyfriend in 9th grade whom I dated 3x times. Never had sex with any of the guys I dated honestly. It just continued from there. I don’t care what people say or feel about my life. it's my life. however, i do believe thatif i am suppose to be with a women than it'll happen and if i am suppose to spend my life with a man than i'll do such thing. it's not like i don't like females, their very pretty and smart with alot of things to come with i'm not sexually, physically or emotionally attracted to them at this point in my life. maybe later in life. idk i can't predict the future.well my first luv was my bestfriend we was dinner with his family and in the car i told him that i like him more than a friend n he said the same thing we dated til he dated from his cousin who was mad that i didn't want him so he killed him