Waiting for Flames

Nathan Torin was a failure. That's what he told himself over and over again. Maybe he shouldn't be living anymore. He is to scared of death though, to scared of the unknown. Who isn't? Nate finds himself caught up with some bad memories, worse people and hard decisions that he has to make for himself. Along with it all he learns the reason of why no one was stopping them, and the mysterious secret that his associates had kept from him that changed his life forever. He struggles with handling the new knowledge, and old feelings, trying to figure out which- if any are true, and what instincts he should follow.