I have often felt as though someone played a joke on me when it came to my brain. Perhaps God, fate or whatever cosmic force of the universe exists gave me this mind-but I have often hated having this mind. I am a person who is hypersensitive to my emotions and to the emotions of others. I can be leveled by my negative feelings and a moment later I'm floating on happiness. It is a difficult and turbulent emotional roller coaster that has long frustrated me. When others of my family have seemed calm and controlled- I am the opposite. Yet I cannot change what I am and these poems reflect upon my journey towards acceptance and a search for a solid footing within the spiraling chaos of my being. May they tell the story I wish to say...but struggle to find the words to tell it.
When she first stepped onto the grounds of Humboldt State University, Emily knew that this was the school for her-and she was right. The three years she has completed in Arcata have helped her to blossom into awareness about the complexities of wildlife and human relationships, the fact that there is more gray than we wish to acknowledge in the political and international world and that sometimes there is beauty in the smallest dandelion.
Emily is working towards a bachelor of science in wildlife management/conservation. While she does not know if she wants to concentrate on any particular wildlife management field yet, she has dreams of working on the Farallon Islands off the shore of San Francisco and swimming with the great white sharks in their natural environment.