I look down at my hands, who am I? Why did this happen to me, why couldn't I be normal? My life couldn't get anymore complicated. Could it? For I love Camen but, he is only a secret. Someone my parents can't know about. He is dead but, he's there. My heart hurts when I think about him. Sometimes I wake up crying and I say aloud, 'I was dreaming of you again.' The only comfort I have is myself. When you died, everyone blamed me. I understand, I was the last one with you. What if I could change that? Well, that one day when you visited me... remember after that day you had visited me much more? I wish it was like that again. You weren't all the way gone. But now... I can't love anyone. Well, not how I loved you Camen.
I'm a thirteen-year-old girl who lives in a small town, located in Oklahoma, (OK). On bookemon, my Best friend is Katie. Offline, I never really encountered a really strong friendship with anyone yet. I am close with my cousin Natalee. Me and her are like shoe laces, tied together and even though we are untied sometimes, we are still close by. I have a dog name Sonny, pronounced like Sunny. He's a mix golden retriever and, we don't know what else. Poor dog. I love to think about everything personal about myself under my favorite tree in my backyard. My yard is huge, don't know the exact length or width.
In photography I love to photograph the world not seen with our own eyes. Like a upside down point of veiw, or a point of veiw from a bug to a bird looking down us from the sky.
In art I love to draw flowers. Even though I know there is many more experienced artists and better out there, I guess I am pretty good for my age. I have always hated to brag but, my friends love to try to make me do so.
Poetry, something that has spoke to me in a whisper. I guess I understand people when they say they are misunderstood. I used to be that way, until I looked into poetry. Just look passed your problems, and into the good reasons. There has to be some.
A best friend, something I lack in my formal life. But, I know deep inside, that friend is going to outgoing and will pop into my life someday. Maybe tomorrow, maybe the next day, or that person is already right in front of me. Katie, your a good Best friend, I'm talking about my life offline. My friends are horrible at their jobs.
Music, it drowns me in chords and lyrics. I love to sing to it, create lyrics, play chords, listen to it with no other worries, and to dance with the flow. Music speaks to every individual, just find the one type that speaks to you most.
For one thing, I promise to be a good friend. No harm to be done, and no bullying to others. I will keep your secrets and not gossip. I will stay by your side, but be neutral for the sake of my other friend. I will understand, and oppreciate you. This I can promise but, you have to promise me something. Cross your heart and cross your fingers, don't hide your personality in the shadows and be yourself. Because, who else is going to do it for you?
I'm a Christian, just to let you guys know what vibe I'm in. Sometimes I may not talk guys, and sometimes I may never stop talking. But, can you keep a secret? Here it is:
I love you.
As a enemy,
As a friend,
As a family,
As a admirer,
As a dreamer,
As a human being.
Someone will always <3 you.
okay, Im seriously sorry that I haven't been able to add more chapters >.< I have been really buisy making new ideas and thoughts I should be able to get back to this by next monday! I did get a little bit more typed in though.